the joys of editing OR it's happening again

that nitpicky voice in my head that says, "you don't know a d*** thing about writing. there are too many little things to fix. why do you even try?" and all because i was trying to make it better.

ok, so the editing i chose to do at the time will make it better, even though figuring out how to improve certain sentences made my head hurt, and i only got as far as the fourth or fifth chapter before i had to stop.

but as i went through it for that edit, i saw other things that i could edit. sentence structures i use too much. certain words i use too much. blah blah blah. the idea of editing was overwhelming. made me want to give up and toss the thing in the trash.

except that i won't. i love this story. it's driving me crazy right now because i had to start over, but i'm going to finish. this year. really. but i won't finish if i keep thinking of all the little things i could change. i'd be editing forever. and it would change the flavor of my writing. i like my style of writing.

granted, my style has changed since the last story, but that was my first and i had a lot to learn. my goal this time was to write a better crafted story. it won't be perfect. if i try to make it perfect, i'll lose the story, not to mention my mind.