welcome to my blog

welcome to my blog

i'm Michelle Gregory, a 55-year-old wife, mom, Jesus-lover, beginning French learner, and Arizona native who moved to Montana 6 years ago (yeah--that was a huge change). i collect way too many craft supplies (and occasionally use them), spend way too much time on Instagram and Facebook, obsessively check my email, and own 2 horses, 2 dogs, and 1 very large black cat. i've been working on the sequel to my one fantasy novel for 9 years (don't you feel better now?). i haven't done anything here for a long time, but maybe jumping back into blogging will get the writer side of my brain humming again.

all of that may be more than you wanted to know, but anyway...

May 29, 2010

on hesitation and letting it all be crap

i think it's been almost a month since i wrote anything on my sequel. or it seems like a month. most likely it's only been three weeks. i do remember posting something about hitting a wall. it was back in March. you can read it here if you care to.

that was back at 45,000 words. 30,000 words later, i hit another wall. this time i think i know why.

---30,000 carefully planned words seem to be my brain's limit. after that, it says, 'Hey you! i need a serious break from this 2nd drafting stuff. i'm bored to death. let me play with a first draft of anything or i'm not cooperating anymore.'

---once i get past the 1st draft of whatever my brain played with, it's still hard to get back to my 2nd draft. i think that's because i'm hesitating. i want my words to be perfect. it's a 2nd draft, so i expect my prose to be better than it would be in a 1st draft.

so i need to remember this:

“Every time we hesitate to begin for fear of failing or seeming frivolous, we must fill that moment of hesitation with prayer. Then we must follow that prayer with action, with doing something, anything that will get us moving forward in the practice of our art.” ~ Janice Elsheimer

i always say that getting the story moving again is like trying to push start my Ford Excursion uphill. i need to let the words be 1st draft words. let them be lousy. let them be crap. save the perfectionism for the 3rd draft.

so on that note, i'm going to post this somewhere.

(thanks go to Vicki Gaines for the quote and Abby Annis for the button.)


Christine H said...

You have to check this out:

Dare to Suck at Writing

Sorry for the language, but I promise it's worth it!

Michelle Gregory said...

i did. good advice, but i don't think i've ever heard the word "suck" used so many times in one short video.

Jackee said...

That's a great quote. And Abby's a genius in the making. Perfectionism in the initial drafts is something I suffer from too. But the perfect book in my head is never going to be a book at all unless I get it onto paper.

Thanks for the reminder, Michelle, I needed it!