November 13, 2010

where the two halves of my brain argue with each other

not an unusual occurrence, but in this case, it's about whether or not to regret revising Eldala for re-release sometime in the near future. in case you wanted a peak inside my brain, here are the arguments.

Why I'm Sorry I'm Revising Eldala

do you know how many freaking writing mistakes i've made in it? no. don't answer that. i've seen them all. too much telling here, whole sections that could be deleted, too many dashes for emphasis, too much food, too many conversations over tea, and too many people "looking around" to set up a description. and the romance scenes, don't even get me started.

there's this huge part of me that wants to change all those things, but it would take away from the flavor of the writing, the story, etc. it's also good to leave things in place so i can see how i've improved, and frankly, no one's ever complained about them, except me, of course, but then they say a book is never finished; it's just abandoned.

on the flipside...

Why I'm Glad I'm Revising Eldala:

there were so many typos i'd missed on the last go-around that i was almost embarrassed to show it to anyone and i certainly wouldn't have been able to send it out to reviewers. now it's more polished formatting-wise, fewer typos, etc. and yes, surprise of all surprises, i'm finally getting up the courage to send it to reviewers. (any volunteers?)

i can see how my writing has improved over time. being part of a great blogger/writing community and having a fantastic crit partner have been a huge part of that. i've learned more than i could have imagined over the last five years since i published it.

going over it again has also shown me story things that i'd forgotten that will affect Blackheart. as each thing arises, i write it down to help me with the next draft.

And in Conclusion...

i'd say that the benefits of revising have outweighed the negatives. it's certainly been an enlightening journey. through it all, i've discovered that i still like my story. it's a good thing because i think i've had to read through it, either in part or in whole, about a gazillion times... ok, maybe only five? whatever. my head's too tired to argue with myself anymore.

And Before I Forget...

thank you to the people who've read through my revisions to make sure i didn't add more mistakes to the manuscript....
Lisa Yarde
Kristie Cook
Anne M.
and my fantastic CP, Kristal Shaff


i almost forgot my two oral readers.... Natural Reader's cheap demo voice, Microsoft Sam, whom my entire family has dubbed "The easiest way to make my story as boring as possible," and my daughter Anna who took over when Sam got to be too much for me to listen to. i love the way she's taken lines like, "What's that?!" and made them as sarcastic as possible, and the way she's changed names to make it funny -- A-rat for Arathor, He-ran for Kieran, Delirious for Delaine and Jail-bird for Galen.


Angela Ackerman said...

I think revising is the way to go, even in this situation. We never stop growing and learning as writers, and so we will always see ways to improve on older works. Look at this as an opportunity that few authors ever get! :)

Angela @ The Bookshelf Muse

Ann Best said...

I read K. Cook's review and said it sounded good. It also sounds very good that you're revising. I look back on stuff I've written and think how awful. It's very difficult to see our own work objectively--almost impossible, really. So is this revision out yet?