...i'm a writer who's afraid to be seen.
drawing attention to myself has never been easy. i'm the kind of person who likes to work behind the scenes. i love to see others shine, accomplish their goals, even help them along if i can. i'm perfectly content to not be noticed.
on the other hand, i want everyone to know about my book... as long as i don't have to personally tell them. how crazy is that?
for example, a few weeks ago, in the course of normal conversation, i told someone i had written and self-published a novel. she thought that was amazing. the following week, i knew i would see her again, so, in the safety of my own house, i decided to bring a copy to show her.
once i got there, it was another story. it took me a full hour to work up the courage to show her. what if she didn't want to buy it? what if she thought i was bragging?
in that hour of debating back and forth with myself, i came to the conclusion that my fear of rejection is so great that i don't want to tell anyone about my book because they might not want anything do with it.
what a conundrum! i want people to read it. i think it's a good story. i've had many people *tell* me it's a good story. they've even told me they couldn't put it down.
all that and i still have trouble telling anyone about it. OY! such a silly goose i am.
how is anyone going to read it if they don't know i wrote it? how is anyone going to know i wrote it if i don't tell them about it? how am i going to tell them about it if i'm scared to death of what they'll think? why the heck do i even care?
there must be something in me that wants to be seen. i think i have something important to say. it's why i have this blog. it's why i'm going to once again step out of my comfort zone and try to promote my book and my blog. one of the best ways i know of to do that is to give away a copy of Eldala.
my official contest post will go up in a couple of days. since one of the book's main themes is courage, my post will be about courage. leave a comment on that post and you'll get one entry. put up a blog post about my contest (or at least mention it) and you'll get another entry. here's the link to my Eldala blog (which has links to Amazon, reviews, etc) : Eldala.blogspot.com