♦ i've now been married for 23 years. my anniversary was 2 days ago. my husband was hunting. i know that sounds like he was neglecting me, but i was completely ok with him going (our hunting dog really needed the practise). to make it up to me, he said he'd take me anywhere i wanted to go (he would have done that anyway). so we're going out to dinner and then we're off to see the new Sherlock Holmes movie with Robert Downey, Jr.
♦ i tried to force myself to write the other day. that might work for some people, but it doesn't work for me. the more i tried to force myself, the more stressed i became and when i'm stressed, i really can't write. it's really a good thing i don't have a publisher telling me when i have to write or what i have to write. my children don't need their mother to be any more freaked out than she already is.
♦ despite how many times i've worked on it, the scene i'm currently writing is not going the way i want it to go. maybe it's time to ditch that scene and get the action into the story some other way. sigh. unfortunately, i write chronologically and until this scene is right, i can't move forward.
♦ yesterday, someone told me they were jealous that i was a writer. i said, "no, you're not. you have no idea what it's like." there are days i would do anything to not be a writer.
♦ to make my point: "Writing a book is a long, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand." ~ George Orwell
♦ "It's nervous work. The state you need to write in is the state that others are paying large sums to get rid of." ~ Shirley Hazzard
♦ my nephew turns 26 today. i can hardly believe it. he was the ring bearer at my wedding and he was only 3. he was so cute (if you read this, Jeremy, sorry, but you were). now he has a job trading stocks. where did the time go?
♦ my youngest son will be 14 in two weeks. seems like i was just bringing him home from the hospital. in two years he'll be old enough to drive. again, where did the time go?
♦ i've been exploring new blogs lately, leaving comments, following, etc. i never realized how many blogging moms out there are writing and trying to get published. makes me glad (again) that i'm not trying to get published. the competition is fierce and i hate to compete with anyone.